I try. So far, she's proven herself... strong enough? Good enough to hear it without judging or leaving. But I always worry, even with her sometimes. Not often, but sometimes.
I suppose. I just know what it's done to others who loved me. My experiences could have been all bad, and she will prove to be better, but I don't like what that says about everyone else.
Does it have to say anything? I don't know what it is, I'm not going to ask but I think it could still be more than the lump you're putting it together as.
As much as we want to protect ourselves from the pain that could hurt your future. You want hope for what can come, the past shouldn't stop that no matter what happened.
There's someone here that you can have hope for, someone that you clearly care a lot about, even love? Don't rush it but let her be your guide, your focus. Things can happen without you noticing.
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He became sick not long after we married. He died.
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Well, not the marriage part of it, but yes to losing someone to death so soon.
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It's not something I would have told anyone so I'd appreciate it if you kept it to yourself.
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[ What that says about him. ]
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It's an idea another friend put to me. That's all.
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You're right. I just have a hard time letting go. It's hard to find that hope back home, especially lately.
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